Rav Avigdor Miller on Belittling Yourself
How can someone know if he’s really gaining excellence as the result of his service of Hashem and his good deeds, or maybe he’s deluding himself – maybe just deceiving himself into believing that he is becoming better?
There’s only one way to work that out – and that’s to always belittle yourself, to consider yourself a nobody. And so you’ll remember that even when Moshe Rabeinu was already on that high level of reflecting all the great things of the perfection of his soul; the level of תמונת השם יביט – seeing the form of Hashem, still Moshe Rabbeinu said ונחנו מה – Who are we? What am I? The gemara says Moshe considered himself even less than Avraham Avinu. Avraham said at least that he’s dust and ashes. ואנכי עפר ואפר – I am dust and ashes (Bereishis 18:27). But Moshe Rabbeinu said ונחנו מה – We’re nothing at all.
So Moshe Rabbeinu was always on the safe side – no matter how great he was, he said he’s nothing. So if your neshama is reflecting right now some ruach hakodosh, then don’t advertise it. Because that’s a pretty good sign that it’s not the real thing. Anybody who claims he can accomplish miracles, it’s a pretty good sign he’s far away from miracles. The man who works miracles is a man who doesn’t know that he can work miracles.